Ok for today: 160 calories
Ellipi: 30mins/384 calories
I was not going to weigh in Today but wanted to let me fat ass know just how bad I was, and that I did gain a lot! I gained 2.4 lbs!!!
not the direction that I need to be going!
Better today
Posted by Deathsmiled at 10:21 PM 0 comments
I will be a old lady soon
I did ok today, 190 calories
and 44 mins on my ellipi burining 583 calories.
But for the week omg! total pig out, to mad to post the totals right now.
Posted by Deathsmiled at 10:58 PM 0 comments
Labels: Anorexia, ED's, Ednos, food journal, Mental disorders, rant
Had a mid-life moment
Ok so the past few days, I was like, ah fuck it! No exercise just eat drink and be fat!
Thinking about my birthday coming up on Thursday just made me snap.
I am getting my ana head back on, looking at photos of when I was thinner and so pretty and happy. I know I can do this, it is just harder now that I am older and lazier.
Posted by Deathsmiled at 11:38 AM 0 comments
Labels: Anorexia, ED's, Ednos, food journal, Mental disorders, rant
Drum roll pleaz
Ok so I lost 5lbs that is 19.2lbs lost so far
Today was semi good day:
185 calories
No ellipi but lots of stress and a major grocery shopping run, mostly for hubby to eat.
So that was my work out, that and leaning the litter box and getting the trash together.
Wed will be my bag binge day I am prepping now so I will control how big the binge is and I will workout also.
Posted by Deathsmiled at 8:54 PM 0 comments
Weekly Recap 9/28-10/4
Total calories: 6,370
Total Ellipi: 196 mins/2,905 cals
Well I guess I will see where I am Tuesday, better go to bed soon so I do not eat anything else!
Posted by Deathsmiled at 9:13 PM 0 comments
Labels: food journal
It just dawned on me...
Oh crap I do a weigh in tommorrow!
Ok , so I have been really good the last 2 days but before that I was awlful so I guess I will see when I step on the dreaded scales.
10/3: 110 cals (better)
Ellipi: 41 mins/534 cals
and today: 180 cals
Ellipi: 41 mins/513 cals
Posted by Deathsmiled at 9:08 PM 0 comments
Labels: Anorexia, ED's, Ednos, food journal, Mental disorders, rant
Another day of feeling fat
Why? Well I did given in as always....
10/2/10: 2,515 Ellipi:40 mins/540 cals
Today: Well so far so good...
110 calories so far... Ellipi: 41mins/534 cals
It is only 5pm! My hubby is driving me nuts! He is a loser! And he is a thin person, he has stick legs but he can eat junk and not get fat, but I do! It is not fair! He is poking and beging for pizza but he is broke and wants me to get it.
I want to go to bed so that I do not have to deal with the temptations but he will bug me about it. This totally sucks!
Posted by Deathsmiled at 5:07 PM 0 comments
Labels: Anorexia, ED's, Ednos, food journal, Mental disorders, rant