This really blows!

Ok food today:
Gum-10
Green tea-0
Speial K- 90
miso soup-35
Total: 135
Ellipi: 21 mins 273 calories

Weigh in today: only lost 3.4lbs thanks to my binge!
Missed my 1st goal weight by 1.2lbs!
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

I am so fat and gross! I need to workout everyday and not eat a lot. The problem is I am depressed, broke and miss my 2 dogs that just died a few months ago, I want to soothe it with drinks and food, but I know it will not make things better just make me fatter.

I have to get into my ana zone again!